Our friendship had started and it was like the boulder chasing Indiana Jones through the Temple, huge and picking up speed!
We got involved with a couple of friends of mine who wanted to play D&D and we would go over every other week to play and chill out. My divorce was over, I was on my own (with my dog) and Ami seemed to know just when to show up and make me smile. She started spending the night in the sleepover kind of way girls have. We would have dinner, play with Luna (the dog) and keep talking about life and whatever random topic came up.
Sleeping in the same bed led to cuddling and I was completely confused. I was straight right? I had been married to a man, I had only been attracted to men before and Ami was very sure that she was a woman. I was still very much attracted to her and I struggled with my own definition of my sexuality for a while. During this time, we would stay at each other’s houses almost every other day. Finally, my brain and my body got together and decided that “it didn’t matter what gender Ami was, all that mattered was that while I was with her, I was happiness incarnate.”
I couldn’t work up the courage to tell her this of course (cause I am a little chicken when it comes to possible rejection) but the cuddling sessions became very uncomfortable as I lay there horny and silent.
One May Night
Ami and I had just finished a D&D session with my friends and went back to me place to sleep. We lay there, arms around each other in the quiet when Ami suddenly sat up. She rolled over and straddled my hips.
“I don’t think I’m very good at reading people so tell me if I am wrong but, is there sexual tension between us?”
What else could I do? She was looking down on me with this intense questioning look and I couldn’t get more then that one word out.
We worked out what we each wanted, friends with benefits were what we became…and by the gods I was benefiting.